Life Lately

Early this morning, I woke up to a heavy downpour which is weird because it’s summer time. But I’m not complaining at all. It’s been super hot in the past days and weeks. I took the photo around 3 in the afternoon…it seems like the sky will be crying out all throughout the night and I find it so comforting.

Feeling uninspired…

In the last three days, I find it so hard to write something. But looking back in March, I couldn’t believe how many posts I’ve written. It’s the most that I’ve done in a month ever since I tried to blog as a hobby. But recently, I’ve been reading posts about WordPress apparently offering only the free and pro plan in the future. I just started again and news like this made me a bit anxious. But I’ll cross the bridge when I get there.

Importance of having genuine friends…

I’ve been feeling down lately, when I just hear or read something, I’d suddenly cry and it’s difficult to hold back the tears. I don’t really understand it. But I always try to let myself feel because for me that is part of honoring myself as well. In times like this, having friends who genuinely care for you is so important. They would lift you up, encourage you and remind you of who you really are at the core. When we’re not okay we tend to wallow in self-pity and just see the negativity around us, we completely forget all the blessings in our life.

What I learned from intentionally isolating myself…

This is related to the previous paragraph. I’ve been isolating myself from everyone because I believe I’m strong and that I can do things just by myself. While it’s true to some extent, eventually I also felt drained and miserable. I’d eat alone in my room, don’t talk as much and only speak when needed. I felt so lonely and that’s not because no one wants to be there for me, but because I wasn’t giving anyone a chance to be there and be a friend or family. At some point, maybe I became so full of myself, thinking only about what I felt or my side of the story and completely disregarded other people’s point of view. Being alone in our thoughts and spending time in solitude is good so we can reflect and have more clarity. But based on my experience, if it’s done for a longer period of time, it can do more harm than good.

On a brighter note…

Since the pandemic, getting an appointment for passport renewal has been such a challenge here in the Philippines. Last February, I was able to book an appointment but failed to show up due to a medical emergency of my brother that I took care of. And finally, I was able to book a new one for next week. I’m keeping my fingers crossed on the next steps that I’ll be doing once I get my passport.

Trusting the higher power…

I realized that every time I’d try to have full control over my life, I always end up disappointed. I have to keep on reminding myself that I can only do so much, after that I should let go and let God. With that, I’d like to end this post with this beautiful reminder:

“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails. ” — Proverbs 19:21

6 thoughts on “Life Lately

  1. mygeminiandi says:

    There is such a difference between taking time for yourself and Isolation.
    It is important to take time and space to connect with yourself and find that connection to inner peace.
    Isolation to me is an extended period of choosing to remove yourself from your relationships and connections, not because you want to reconnect with yourself but because you want to avoid the outside world.
    Isolation long term can end up in complete desperation.

    Control. I don’t know if a greater illusion exists than belief that you are in complete control of everything in your life. Everything is my life falls apart (or at least becomes extremely difficult) when I begin to not only feel but act like I am in control.
    You can definitely make your own decisions and choices, but you don’t have any control of how they are perceived by those around you.
    Not to mention the randomness of life.
    The only one we have the power to change is ourselves.
    Let go and Let God – is my motto. 😊
    I love your Bible verse

    A favorite of mine is
    Jeremiah 29:11
    “For I know the plans I have for you” declares the LORD. “They are plans for good and not evil to give you a purpose and a hope”.
    1st verse I ever memorized.
    I enjoyed this post very much and I look forward to more.

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    1. Weng says:

      Hi, thank you for giving me a new perspective especially about taking time for self and isolation. I haven’t thought about it that way before.

      I think I just spent a little time for self-reflection and then just intentionally isolated myself from all my relationships and connections. Exactly what you said. I now understand why it wasn’t productive at all.

      Jeremiah 29:11 is also one of my favorite bible verses that I knew by heart =) I’m happy that you enjoyed this kind of post, I’m not expecting others to like personal/journal-like posts here. So thank you so much!

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  2. mygeminiandi says:

    I love interacting with writers and readers. I ❤️ to know when someone connects with me and tells me. I also know how good it feels to have someone take time to acknowledge their experiences or connections with my post. Interacting is awesome!!!

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